slacker

i am a blogging slacker, a workout slacker, a homemaker slacker, friend slaker, and gardening slacker. the only thing that i am not slacking on is work - only because it is so damn demanding right now! i am working on finding a balance. we'll see how that work out.

i got a sewing machine! it has been forever since i sewed and so i am having to take it slow and learn everything again. i am working with appliques right now so be on the look out in your mail. you might be getting some of my practice projects. i am so ridiculously excited about all of the possibilities of what i can create! maybe that's all i needed all along...a creative outlet. or, quite possibly, sewing is going to add to my anxiety even more!

thinking about balance and priorities, i think about how different everyone's life is. in my life i balance home and marriage life, work, friends, dogs, exercise/staying active, tennis, restaurant and now sewing projects (we'll see). there are other things that come up but this is the basics that make up my life right now. where would i ever fit a kid in to that? how does nicole (and countless other mothers out there but she is the closest to me) do it? i have no idea but i am in awe of her and all women like her.

being in sales is like having 50 bosses. i have more than 50 customers that rely on me and that i have to make happy on a daily/weekly/monthly basis. i guess they are a lot like my life. i do what i can for them, give them the attention they need and deserve, and then they are satisfied until another need arises.

in my life, i give each area the attention it needs until i am satisfied with where i am with it and then can set it aside and give attention to another part. the dogs get attention, they are satisfied, they leave me alone. i go to tennis practice, work hard, it ends and i put it aside until the next time. i go to the restaurant, work, collect my tips and go home and don't think about it until i am there again. the only problem with this is my real job. i carry it with me wherever i go. every bad/unsatisying interaction, every dollar NOT sold, i bring home and let affect my marriage/social interactions/home life. i guess i have found the part that needs balancing. does anyone know how to do this? i need help.