How far would you go?

To get what you want?

Maybe I am naive. Maybe I have seen enough 80's movies to think that this is an antiquated idea. But how many hoops unrelated to merit and achievement would you jump through to get ahead?

Situations where stubborn streaks are bad:
Hostage situations
Fights with a spouse
REFUSAL TO DO SOMETHING TO GET AHEAD AT WORK BECAUSE IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH JOB PERFORMANCE

(Note to reader: while this seems to be a morality issue, and in a way it is, this does not have to do with anything inappropriate or unethical. Amen to that.)

So now I get to sit around and contemplate whether I am being unreasonable or if it is worth it to give into something I feel is wrong to (maybe, maybe not) get a shot at the advancement I want.

People who have made a stubborn refusal to compromise look noble:
Jesus
Fathers of the Constitution
Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.
Abraham Lincoln
Rosa Parks
Woman's Suffrage-ettes


Have you ever heard praise of a leader in the vein of, "that so-and-so is such an amazing conformist."

I didn't think so. How about the terms, "independent, advocate, empowers self and others, thinks outside the box?"

reasons that i love whole foods market

1. the staff member who saw that i had 6 apples in my hands trying to open a produce bag and did it for me. that just doesn't happen elsewhere.

2. the juice bar. enough said.

3. the hot/salad bar at lunch. they have THE BEST oil free balsamic dressing, tuna salad, black eyed peas, (uhhh, the brown rice is almost always hard - consider yourself warned) and steamed veggies.

4. self checkout

5. free samples of gelato!

i will not be going to any whole foods today but i will be going near one :) i miiiight have to stop by!

slumdog sleep inn. fing gross.

so the stuffed chicken breasts were amazing and i FINALLY got a noteworth response from the husband. B raved over them like he had never tasted cheese before. i was so proud i fell asleep. all in a hard days work ;)

so on the southern tour that is my anti-glam life i am sitting in a disgusting sleep inn in athens, alabama. so pissed. i didn't book my hotel room in huntsville in time and they were all booked because of some conference. this is a smoking room - it smells like the dunes hotel/casino in vegas ca. 1945. can't wait to roll into the health food store tomorrow am reeking of stale ciggies.

i have now laid out my clothes i wore today all over my side of the bed so that i don't touch a single linen in this flea bag. i wish i owned a gun...and a permit to have the gun...maybe if i drove around in a little motorhome with all of the convience and cleanliness of home instead of a civic. now that's something to think about for my little vagabond life! i might even put a "free bird" bumper sticker on it!

i guess for tonight i will listen to the magical melody of the fing freeway and let myself drift off to sleep. even though it is 8:09pm. the sooner i sleep through this nightmare, the sooner i will wake up and get the f out.

on a last thought, though. i look around places in these po-dunk southern towns that i go to and think, "how did i get from sunny, sparkly southern california to here?" and i am not one to judge a book by it's cover (well, i don't do it ALL the time!!!) but when the clerk in the hotel ISN'T WEARING SHOES i tend to wonder WHY, God, WHY?!?! is this a test? maybe. especially when i get to the dumpy room and the only channel that comes in clearly is MTV and there is a hills marathon on. RUB IT IN WHY DON'T YOU!!!

traveling soul

i was going to say to hell with this blog because i thought, "no one is reading it so why bother". but then i missed it and i decided that i would keep it for myself. if you are reading this, yay! and if not, oh well.

for our tennis match today beth decided that we would all make different salads (i.e. pasta, potato, egg, chicken, spinach) and i got assigned deviled eggs. i had never made them before but i did it! and i got compliments! yay me :) we ate them over at caryn's after the tennis matched got called for rain. for the past 2 seasons we have had to deal with weather which is so annoying because rescheduling sucks.

i have been busy! i went to idaho for meredith and zac's wedding. i love them.

i went from there to my parents house for the week. it was awesome to be home.

i will always think of southern california as home. the spring air smelled like my childhood and i got a chance to go back in time and reconnect with myself.

then i worked the natural products expo west. i had a great time with my co-workers but it was exhausting. Capital E.

now i am back with the husband that i adore and the dogs who i both love and loathe and i couldn't be happier. okay, i would be happier if it were 75 degrees outside but we can't always get what we want :)

thank you presidents day (i think)

today is a work holiday. i had planned on working because the husband was going to be but he got it off and so i decided to stay home and catch up on expense reports and call notes. even though i am technically working i am not in the field today and for some reason i feel guilty. why? i don't know but i think it might be because at the end of the month i am going to anaheim for a trade show and have decided to take an extra 3 days off to go early and visit with my family. that would put me out of the frield for a week and i am afraid it will result in my not hitting my goal and might be viewed as a "lack of committment" on my part.

i am committed to my job. i love to succeed and i love the personal satisfaction the relationships i have with my customers brings me but sales is rough. it is a continuous struggle but like most salespeople i thrive on the challenge. that said, i haven't been home for a year and i am homesick. really, really homesick. this is a great opportunity to take some vacation days and have a low key visit with family and friends that i miss terribly. it is time for me to get some perspective; family and relationships are what matter and when i am 100, i won't remember what sales periods i hit quota and which i didn't. i will remember that i was in mccall, idaho to watch meredith and zac say "i do" and that i got to go to pizzioli with my parents, brother and lauren on a monday night.

i will continue to work hard and spend time with the ones that i love while being fully present in every moment. i know that i cannot do my job to the best of my ability if i am not happy and focused and what makes me happiest is being a good wife, mom to the dogs, daughter, sister, granddaughter, cousin and friend.

maybe blogs really are theraputic! i feel so much better!