word vomit

so these are the things that have been rolling around in my head...

the first one really bothered me: a woman in front of me at the coffee place drive thru had one of those family stickers. the husband had a cell phone, the son a football, daughter pom poms, even the dog had a bone!!! do you know what the mother had in HER arms? a.sack.of.groceries. you know who her husband was probably on the phone with? a woman who has actual hobbies and something to add to the conversation.

that's great that she takes care of her family and all but what about a hobby? something interesting that she likes to do? at all?

today an earthquake hit the east coast and it caused mass chaos for various reasons. but it really got me thinking, why weren't they taught to be more prepared? growing up in southern California i know i am at a huge advantage for what to do in that situation but until i moved down here i didn't know a damn thing about dealing with a tornado. or an ice storm. i wouldn't know what to do if a hurricane hit. why don't they teach everyone all of these things so that they will know what to do in this ever-shrinking world? people move and migrate every day and the unexpected happens.

wait...were other children schooled on this? is it because Californians are so egocentric or maybe it's because i went to a government school and got a sub par education. don't tell my father the ex-principal of a public school i said that. Boortz would say it's because of my poor education administered by liberals pushing an agenda.

i think it's the California-centric theory :)

slumdog sleep inn. fing gross.

so the stuffed chicken breasts were amazing and i FINALLY got a noteworth response from the husband. B raved over them like he had never tasted cheese before. i was so proud i fell asleep. all in a hard days work ;)

so on the southern tour that is my anti-glam life i am sitting in a disgusting sleep inn in athens, alabama. so pissed. i didn't book my hotel room in huntsville in time and they were all booked because of some conference. this is a smoking room - it smells like the dunes hotel/casino in vegas ca. 1945. can't wait to roll into the health food store tomorrow am reeking of stale ciggies.

i have now laid out my clothes i wore today all over my side of the bed so that i don't touch a single linen in this flea bag. i wish i owned a gun...and a permit to have the gun...maybe if i drove around in a little motorhome with all of the convience and cleanliness of home instead of a civic. now that's something to think about for my little vagabond life! i might even put a "free bird" bumper sticker on it!

i guess for tonight i will listen to the magical melody of the fing freeway and let myself drift off to sleep. even though it is 8:09pm. the sooner i sleep through this nightmare, the sooner i will wake up and get the f out.

on a last thought, though. i look around places in these po-dunk southern towns that i go to and think, "how did i get from sunny, sparkly southern california to here?" and i am not one to judge a book by it's cover (well, i don't do it ALL the time!!!) but when the clerk in the hotel ISN'T WEARING SHOES i tend to wonder WHY, God, WHY?!?! is this a test? maybe. especially when i get to the dumpy room and the only channel that comes in clearly is MTV and there is a hills marathon on. RUB IT IN WHY DON'T YOU!!!

traveling soul

i was going to say to hell with this blog because i thought, "no one is reading it so why bother". but then i missed it and i decided that i would keep it for myself. if you are reading this, yay! and if not, oh well.

for our tennis match today beth decided that we would all make different salads (i.e. pasta, potato, egg, chicken, spinach) and i got assigned deviled eggs. i had never made them before but i did it! and i got compliments! yay me :) we ate them over at caryn's after the tennis matched got called for rain. for the past 2 seasons we have had to deal with weather which is so annoying because rescheduling sucks.

i have been busy! i went to idaho for meredith and zac's wedding. i love them.

i went from there to my parents house for the week. it was awesome to be home.

i will always think of southern california as home. the spring air smelled like my childhood and i got a chance to go back in time and reconnect with myself.

then i worked the natural products expo west. i had a great time with my co-workers but it was exhausting. Capital E.

now i am back with the husband that i adore and the dogs who i both love and loathe and i couldn't be happier. okay, i would be happier if it were 75 degrees outside but we can't always get what we want :)

thank you presidents day (i think)

today is a work holiday. i had planned on working because the husband was going to be but he got it off and so i decided to stay home and catch up on expense reports and call notes. even though i am technically working i am not in the field today and for some reason i feel guilty. why? i don't know but i think it might be because at the end of the month i am going to anaheim for a trade show and have decided to take an extra 3 days off to go early and visit with my family. that would put me out of the frield for a week and i am afraid it will result in my not hitting my goal and might be viewed as a "lack of committment" on my part.

i am committed to my job. i love to succeed and i love the personal satisfaction the relationships i have with my customers brings me but sales is rough. it is a continuous struggle but like most salespeople i thrive on the challenge. that said, i haven't been home for a year and i am homesick. really, really homesick. this is a great opportunity to take some vacation days and have a low key visit with family and friends that i miss terribly. it is time for me to get some perspective; family and relationships are what matter and when i am 100, i won't remember what sales periods i hit quota and which i didn't. i will remember that i was in mccall, idaho to watch meredith and zac say "i do" and that i got to go to pizzioli with my parents, brother and lauren on a monday night.

i will continue to work hard and spend time with the ones that i love while being fully present in every moment. i know that i cannot do my job to the best of my ability if i am not happy and focused and what makes me happiest is being a good wife, mom to the dogs, daughter, sister, granddaughter, cousin and friend.

maybe blogs really are theraputic! i feel so much better!