today is a work holiday. i had planned on working because the husband was going to be but he got it off and so i decided to stay home and catch up on expense reports and call notes. even though i am technically working i am not in the field today and for some reason i feel guilty. why? i don't know but i think it might be because at the end of the month i am going to anaheim for a trade show and have decided to take an extra 3 days off to go early and visit with my family. that would put me out of the frield for a week and i am afraid it will result in my not hitting my goal and might be viewed as a "lack of committment" on my part.
i am committed to my job. i love to succeed and i love the personal satisfaction the relationships i have with my customers brings me but sales is rough. it is a continuous struggle but like most salespeople i thrive on the challenge. that said, i haven't been home for a year and i am homesick. really, really homesick. this is a great opportunity to take some vacation days and have a low key visit with family and friends that i miss terribly. it is time for me to get some perspective; family and relationships are what matter and when i am 100, i won't remember what sales periods i hit quota and which i didn't. i will remember that i was in mccall, idaho to watch meredith and zac say "i do" and that i got to go to pizzioli with my parents, brother and lauren on a monday night.
i will continue to work hard and spend time with the ones that i love while being fully present in every moment. i know that i cannot do my job to the best of my ability if i am not happy and focused and what makes me happiest is being a good wife, mom to the dogs, daughter, sister, granddaughter, cousin and friend.
maybe blogs really are theraputic! i feel so much better!
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