Billy's Big 3-2 (or is it 3-3?)

my husband doesn't know how old he is. i know how old he is but he seems not to. he explained to me last night that he spent a significant amount of time yesterday figuring out whether he was turning 32 or 33. geez. so in honor of his birthday, we are having his favorite meal (cube steak) up at his dad's house. i am really excited and very pleased that his dad and stepmom invited us. i always spent my birthday with my parents and probably still would if i lived at home. happy birthday billy! i was so excited to buy you a "husband" card :)

in other news, after getting us up 2 times last night and STILL crapping on the floor and the GUEST BED (yes, bedding and featherbed all trashed) jake the dog found himself in a crate today. and for the first time since i brought him home, i didn't have to worry what he and cayenne were getting into. and the house was exactly as i left it when i returned home. ahhhh, so nice. he might find himself in it tonight, too because i am exhausted and need sleep!

go USA men's hockey! beat switzerland!

things that i find funny

- california happy cow commercials

-the soup

- the fact that my husband calls the 3.5 minutes it takes for the easy mac to cook "the longest 3.5 minutes of his life"

heed my warning

to all of my readers out there (and by "all" i mean nicole hill if she is over the stomach bug):

DO NOT SEE PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

granted, i was only half watching while i completed call notes and an expense report but husband confirmed...it wasn't scary. we paid like $4 to see that stupid movie on demand and i wanted to call at&t and get a refund.

now, back in the summer of '97 i went to see the blair witch project and i was 16 and my parents had left me alone in our house for a month while i worked and they went on vacation and YES, i was scared. i was totally convinced that it was a true story. mostly because the people in it were smart enough to stay hidden until it was in the theater for at least 4 months but then the idiots surfaced at an mtv red carpet event and pissed me off.

flash forward 12 years and someone tries to recreate the magic yet surfaces about 2 seconds after the movie comes out. word to the wise: if you are trying to pull something like this off actually act dead and/or missing. such a gimick. i am not 16 anymore damn you.

we totally should have just watched "couple's retreat" and laughed our arses off.

thank you to husband who helped me remember details of this post. i.e. name of movie we saw and name of movie i said we should have seen. love ya.

DISGUSTA

too tired to post any real thoughts right now. i drove to augusta at 5am and did a reset from 9am-5pm and then drove home. yuck. i will say, however, that my dog's attitude is driving me crazy - she had better get it together ASAP before she finds herself in a crate. i will also say that it was super sweet of the husband to clean the house while i was away this afternoon.

driving 300 miles in a day sucks (is 29 too old to say "sucks"? probably, i am going to phase it out of my vocab). i am going to have a glass of wine and watch figure skating. yay!

thank you presidents day (i think)

today is a work holiday. i had planned on working because the husband was going to be but he got it off and so i decided to stay home and catch up on expense reports and call notes. even though i am technically working i am not in the field today and for some reason i feel guilty. why? i don't know but i think it might be because at the end of the month i am going to anaheim for a trade show and have decided to take an extra 3 days off to go early and visit with my family. that would put me out of the frield for a week and i am afraid it will result in my not hitting my goal and might be viewed as a "lack of committment" on my part.

i am committed to my job. i love to succeed and i love the personal satisfaction the relationships i have with my customers brings me but sales is rough. it is a continuous struggle but like most salespeople i thrive on the challenge. that said, i haven't been home for a year and i am homesick. really, really homesick. this is a great opportunity to take some vacation days and have a low key visit with family and friends that i miss terribly. it is time for me to get some perspective; family and relationships are what matter and when i am 100, i won't remember what sales periods i hit quota and which i didn't. i will remember that i was in mccall, idaho to watch meredith and zac say "i do" and that i got to go to pizzioli with my parents, brother and lauren on a monday night.

i will continue to work hard and spend time with the ones that i love while being fully present in every moment. i know that i cannot do my job to the best of my ability if i am not happy and focused and what makes me happiest is being a good wife, mom to the dogs, daughter, sister, granddaughter, cousin and friend.

maybe blogs really are theraputic! i feel so much better!

Hello

so it is my 29th birthday and i am sitting at home with my dogs. my husband is at work (he IS a florist and it IS valentines day) and my nearest family member is 2800 miles away. so is this a good day? i am sitting in a warm house with my dogs who i love. i am healthy and have food to eat. i have a husband who i love and friends that i adore. so i guess that this is a good day.

today seemed like the perfect time to start writing my thoughts down. i received my first "wife" birthday card last night at midnight. it brought me to tears. i love being married so far - all 2 months of it - but it is uncharted territory for us. there is so much more to this than me wearing sparkly rings. a big one is whether or not i will be changing my name. i know eventually i will but i am really struggling with letting go of my name and i don't know why. is this normal? i have no idea but dad keeps telling me it is not normal and that i have to let go.

for now, i am going to fix myself a drink and wait for my hubby to come home and think about a good topic for my next post.