into the rabbit hole

as i slip deeper and deeper in to this obsession with home decorating, i can't help but think that this may be fulfilling a void that was left after i didn't have my wedding to plan anymore. i can't believe that i am finally taking an active interest in our home. actually, i can't believe that i haven't before. it's embarrassing and sad but, please. we all know that the wife of the year award isn't being bestowed on my ass.

there is one part of this humble (and do i EVER mean humble) abode that has irked, repelled and at some points straight disgusted me and that is the red walled-blue cabinet/counter topped kitchen. i hate you kitchen. these days i am all about not having any hate in my heart but i kid you not, i hate you. you are awful. nothing about you makes me happy, in fact quite the opposite is true. you are an eyesore but i just don't know what the hell to do with you. everything about you sucks including your shape, size and design but mark my words...i.will.conquer.you. so live it up, ugly, because your days are numbered. see ya!

current:


so embarrassing it pains me to share.

inspiration and dreams for the future (this update has to happen if we ever hope to rent this place out so while NO, i absolutely DO NOT plan to live in this house for much longer, this change will help make us money):

images from the happy home and oh joy!

i realize that there is no cohesion with these 3 pictures. let me explain breifly. the first is unrealistic for us with all the white but the layout is exactly like our kitchen only 3x as large. the 2nd is clean and shiny, just like i like it and 3rd is rustic and has the feel of our house. what i am going to try for is the lighting and island in #1 with the clean, minimal, shiny feel of #2 and use the natural touches of #3 to keep in the feel of our house. (i realize #3 is not a kitchen, but inspiration comes from different places)

once i actually convince people to read this blog i plan on asking for advice, but until then i will continue to make plans and begin projects without my husband's opinion because i know he will help me finish them and it saves me the pain of his 2nd guessing me :) i need to try and err on my own.

look at me! i am definitely feeling like a real wife with this new obsession. we'll see how i feel after i am in tallahassee and the gulf coast this week for work. chances are preeeettty good that i will return exhausted just happy to have a home, husband and dogs to come back to and all of my ambition will be put on the back burner. i hope not, though, because i am really excited about creating something that i am proud of.